CALLED: I Have Been Reborn-ed and Rebonded-ed

Sunday, November 26, 2006

I Have Been Reborn-ed and Rebonded-ed

I feel like I have been reborn again now that I know how much He loves Him and the abundance I possess in Christ. Which is really awesome because when I was reborn (i.e. when I accepted Christ) I thought things were very good already, and never thought I could claim so much more as a child of God. Also, back then I found it hard to relate to God as Father because I felt he was distant and disappointed with me. Now His face is very near. :) I've been reborn again into His arms, where I was supposed to be all along.

And I've rebonded my hair again! This time with quite a drastic change in hairstyle. It's extremely amusing to see people's reactions to it. Some people like it, some people don't, but it's my hair and I like it, so I'm happy. Have wanted to do something like that for a long time, but wasn't sure how it'd look. It really is growing more and more on me though. It was very strange to see myself like that after the hairstylist cut away my fringe for the first time, though. Actually I got it done last Monday, but I wanted people to see firsthand so I didn't blog about it. Some of my friends still haven't seen it yet, but aiyah. Don't care already lah. And I realise something: Now I look like the girl in my blog template! Lol!

Had to paint away the background because of some "unmentionables" hohoho

There is something about this haircut that makes you wanna act cute! I'm not kidding...

Update: I drafted that ages ago, but haven't had time to finish it either! Have been working some days at my mom's shop, playing Sims 2 and listening to sermons on my laptop when I'm home. So that's why I've 'disappeared' from the online world!

Went for service by myself for the first time today. It felt the same actually, as when I've my friends with me. Was touched again by Abba (this means 'father' in Hebrew; go to Israel today and you'll hear kids calling their fathers that) today. Pastor talked about two things that he wondered about until he became a father himself. The first was something he'd seen as a child, when he'd lived in a village for awhile. One time, the village was having a festival and they were cooking a huge pot of curry that was boiling hot. Somehow, a little girl fell into the pot, and without hesitation her mother plunged her arms into the pot of curry and pulled her daughter out. Of course her arms got burnt, but she thought nothing of it because she loved her daughter so much.

The second was a verse that God was pleased to see Jesus crushed. "Yet it pleased the Lord to bruise Him; He has put Him to grief (Isaiah 53:10)." And he always wondered how it could be that the Father could be pleased to bruise His own Son! Then he had his daughter, and he understood the sacrifices a parent would make for their children. How a little being can move the heart of a big being. (This just struck me: Isn't that how God sees us too?)

There is this other verse that refers to Jesus as the arm of God. "The Lord will lay bare his holy arm in the sight of all the nations, and all the ends of the earth will see the salvation of our God (Isaiah 52:10)." As a Father, He was grieved to see His Son on the cross. But He had to turn His back because Jesus was carrying all the sin of the world. Yet He was pleased, because He saw us!

The Father's love just never ceases to amaze me. He saw me when His Son was dying on the cross and was pleased! And so Jesus had me in His mind as well when He was hanging on the cross - He thought of me and put me above His life and all the pain He was going through. He could have come down; this was someone who had not only healed the terminally ill and driven out demons, but raised people who had been dead for days. But He did not. And His heart broke for me. How many of us would die for a good man? Yet He died to pay for my sins. Now I am in Christ, whose death and resurrection has allowed me direct access to the Father.

So I sat there mind-blown, blessed and loved into tears again today.

posted by esther @ 9:38 PM

3 Comments:

At 2:43 PM, Anonymous said…

woah!u rebonded your hair! should try perm instead. maybe u will look very different.i like your hair. -jessie
At 6:28 PM, esther said…

hehe thanks!!! :D yeah, i've thought of trying a perm also. maybe in a couple of years' time though! haha...must save up money first. btw, the last pic i took with my old hairstyle was with you guys. haha.
At 9:01 AM, miss X said…

hey...I've rebonded my hair too >_<