| Saturday, December 04, 2004 |
| happy bumble bee |
is me. Haha. I can't believe how busy I've been this week, planning for Christmas Idol and other events even before that.
What's Christmas Idol?
*start shameless plugging*
It's CROSSOVER GENERATION'S CHRISTMAS EVENT!!!! Yes Baby. Are you suffering from post-Singapore Idol trauma already? Then join our talentime (you can sing, dance, whatever) and dressing competition! Just a measly 12 bucks for good food, good fun, and VERY (I mean VERY VERY VERY VERY) good looking babes and hunks. Come on, you know you want to come. Muahahahaha. Eh, got door gift also leh....and all that for $12. Oh, and very attractive prizes for the winners too. Got cash prize leh...
Yes, I was the one who thought of the name and I swear it was God-given inspiration.
If you're interested and you have my number please call/message or you can leave a note here. All welcome, but must be youth. By youth, I mean you have to be under 21. Over 21 also can but must be schooling. And by schooling, I mean like first or at most second year of uni getting your first degree. Got it?
If you don't fit this criteria you can go for the adults' event as well. That one has a poolside BBQ, at the Hollandse Club. $68 but can pay less if more than 2 persons.
*end shameless plugging*
Ok, so I've been running around almost the whole of Singapore and even offshore. I never thought it'd be so fun. And I somehow manage to find time to do my own thing (like go to East Coast yesterday) and even study the Pyschology book Bro Christian lent me for one hour yesterday. (I'm so excited for Christmas!) I feel so energetic nowadays. It's overflowing. Grace and love and might.
To be honest it's not been a perfect week. Monday night was rough and so was Thursday night. I cried a whole lot those two nights. I hate Satan for making my mother this jaded, bitter woman. It tears me apart to think of it. It hurts me terribly when out of her bitterness she sometimes says things that shoot into me like arrows into my heart. I'm not going to let him win. My mother is not going to hell. In the name of Jesus, I claim her salvation. Amen.
The other day, I met this girl in SKS. Actually, I didn't know her (now I do) but she knew me. It's really strange to me that people know me when I don't know them. I thought I was low profile...ok not low profile. I was not low profile in JC. But I didn't think people would know me, you know. Anyway, she said she'd been reading my blog and was much encouraged by my testimonies.
I'm glad that my life is a testimony for someone. I think, maybe many times we don't realise what kind of impact we make, and CAN make, on others. Doesn't matter who you are, what level of schooling you're at. As cheesy as it sounds, we can all make a difference, if we choose to.
I used to be quite afraid of letting people know that I was retaking my 'A's this year. I even avoided certain friends because I didn't want the awkawardness of telling them the truth and hearing, "Huh!! Really ah!" because people think I'm smart and diligent, when I'm actually smart but a bloody passive no-life slacker. In fact I don't think I've actually said it out here so plainly before. This has been a wonderful yet terrifying year. Wonderful because I have grown by leaps and bounds. Terrfiying because I was grappling with the issue of trusting Him wholly with my future. All that fear, and guilt, and shame. So many bouts of unworthiness and insecurity. Yet, like I said in my last post, with each bout of such, I grew stronger. Quite amazing to look back and see how far He's carried me. I was going to say "how far I've come" but it's not me. It was Him all along, who got me through, not just safe and sound, but victorious. He's fulfilled so many of my wishes, dreams and desires. I've got to write about that one day. :)
Praise God for this year. Praise God for every single thing. Praise God for being Himself - the God who cannot stop loving and giving, who cannot break His promises to us. These are the only things my Almighty cannot do. I love Him.
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