| Sunday, October 31, 2004 |
| it's gonna be a long and hard journey... |
I'd always thought that deliverance for her would happen in an instant, and she would suddenly gain the God-given insight into His love. And understand that she is free and does not have to live the way she is living anymore. And that she would be strong from then on, strong within herself, because God was there, without having to build walls for self-defence.
Maybe that happens for some people, like Paul [read about his conversion]. But then again maybe there are some moments in Paul's life that went unrecorded. That only God knew about. His most private moments of anguish, and pain, weakness, futility, that're only just hinted at [link] in his letters.
I neglected to realise that for most people it's a gradual, slow transformation, to cast off the cares and the skin of the world. And it appears that with her, it'd be a long, slow, hard journey. She may stumble many many times before she grasps the truth in its fullness.
And to be honest, sometimes I wonder: What have I signed myself up for?? I've got to learn to stop freaking out when she says she wants to hurt herself and trust that God will protect her. It takes a toll on me, really, because I love her. But, because I love her, I have to guide her on this journey.
And she's not the only one.
Much to learn from Paul, indeed. |
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