| Tuesday, February 08, 2005 |
| one more day to take-off |
Really looking forward to it but at the same time somewhat dreading it...reason being I'm going to miss spending CNY and Valentine's Day with my friends! And one carecell and one service!
I was even the one who so enthusiastically messaged Pikachu and Diva and Jong to meet up on Valentine's. Before I realised I won't even be here. Ack.
Oh well. I think there'll still be at least a year or two before one of us can't make it because someone has a hot date. Lol. But I don't care, if I just so happen to be that one, I'm going to say, sorry I must have dinner with my friends on Valentine's Day. But I can go out during the day with you.
=P Ya, ya, easy to say, I know.
I love airplane food. It's the novelty of it I guess. Anyway I'm not a picky eater unless the taste really disagrees with my tongue. I always try to finish all the food on my plate and not waste. Dunno why. Don't remember my parents teaching me to do that? Haha.
My mom likes to say I've 'absorbed' all their (my parents') bad and good points, but I don't think so. I think in many of my ways of doing things and habits, I've developed independently of them and the surroundings they've provided me. Though in some ways I really am like them. Like, I can't stand rubbish and hair lying around. I have to pick it up and throw it away and then wash my hands after that even if I used tissue to pick it up.
Haha. NaNa sometimes calls me a clean freak when I do that. But really, my mom's worse!
Spring cleaning the shop tomorrow. Yay. Cleaning can be quite therapeutic really. Not to mention good exercise. I love having my cousin around to help. It's been ages since I've spoken to her properly. Long story, but we're not very close to my extended family, which I've always felt was sad. This year, I asked God to let there be reconciliation, and I think it is taking place already! We're giving each other stuff, egg rolls (or love letters) and abalone and home-made chilli etc. The other day my mom's sister came down to shop for some stuff. I was looking at the 3 of them, my mom, my aunt and my cousin, and thinking, wow we look like each other. We are family. This is what family is like, should be. We share the same blood. For the first time in many years I felt connected to them. There are still unresolved issues and bitterness and misunderstandings, but this is a start.
I really never saw this coming at all, and everyday I look forward to my cousin coming. Even if I don't talk to her that much and all cos' we're busy, but we all get to eat together, and anyway her mere presence already means so so much to me.
Ooh late. Got to sleep!
I'm gonna miss some people so much. I'm like that, I can't stand to be apart from those I love. Not that I need them to fill any void inside, but they're so much a part of my life already! Hai how to go overseas for studies next time. : p
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posted by esther @ 1:00 AM  |
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Same sentiments...