| Tuesday, April 27, 2004 |
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Qing Ying, you find love in a Secret Crush
Or so says Tickle.com:
"You love the crush. It's that simple. Butterflies in the stomach, blushing when they walk in the room, coming up with plausible excuses to talk to them — it's the whole fantasy that appeals to you. Maybe you like having a secret and admiring someone from afar, or perhaps you're just shy when it comes to matters of the heart. But underneath all the cloak and dagger stuff, we wouldn't be surprised if there's a passion for all things mushy and gushy. Maybe that's part of your secret too.
In or out of a relationship, you like the idea of the ideal. That's what can make it so hard to take the first step to make a crush something more — you don't want to burst that bubble. But how do you know what will happen if you don't try? Maybe some secrets aren't supposed to stay that way."
Well...partly true...ok, I admit I do think that there is something hopelessly romantic and noble and selfless about loving someone from afar...after all, if you love someone, shouldn't that person come before all your desires to be with him/her? But mostly it is that before, I was scared that the other party would run to the other end of the world if he knew, and our friendship would be ruined. Yes, it's a problem with my self-esteem. Now, I don't think there is any point in telling him anyway, because nothing can happen now. It doesn't make any difference if he likes me too; in fact it would make it even harder because we will not be together. I like the idea of the ideal? Yes, I am an idealistic person, maybe even naive. But I know when I fall in love, it will be the way I've always imagined love should be, because that's a promise from my God.
I am an idealistic, hopelessly hopeful romantic! =D |
posted by esther @ 2:32 AM  |
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