| Tuesday, April 18, 2006 |
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I was browsing through some profiles on my Friendster list and it strikes me as weird. Most of them really aren't who I'll consider my friends. Most are but acquaintances. Some have always been, and always will be. Some were friends (or whom I thought were) but are only acquaintances now. Some I regret, some I don't. Old crushes. Someone who had a crush on me, for reasons unknown. Some I have some form of contact with everyday, every week, every few weeks. Some I have never spoken more than 100 words to in the time I that I saw them regularly. Some of my real friends don't even have a Friendster account. Some I have never even met. Some I may never meet again. Familiar strangers. The memories come rushing back.
Friendster is not so much a community of friends but people whom you know exist. Which is why I don't add people anymore, even though I recognise them from primary school, JC, etc. Though it is, just the littlest bit tempting, to up my list by a few more persons.
But, as a friend once posted, some people are in your life for a season only, for a reason. Some are there for life. Then again, who knows what the future holds? Friendships have changed when I used to think they wouldn't. I have regrets, aches and pains and memories of tear-stained nights. One with iron-banded headaches. But this is life, is it not?
Yet I am as always - better than I deserve to be. I am grateful that in each season of life I've had at least one friend who stood by me and endured all my crap and nonsense. I am grateful that I have made a difference in the lives of those I've come to love, with my love.
And I have Jesus, who always loves me no matter what I do/feel/think/am/look like. :)
(I'm in a nostalgic and sentimental mood. Don't mind me. xP) |
posted by esther @ 1:43 PM  |
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