| Thursday, December 18, 2003 |
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Lord of My Heart
As promised, the definition of a yakit...someone who is alone but not lonely, a unique, special individual complete in God, a whole. Not a half. A whole. =) I find that many times I still place my value in the eyes of the world, which is so...useless, cos' as I've realised time and time again, people disappoint, no matter how close they are to you. Not all the while, but at some point even your closest and dearest will. Not God. He never disappoints. He's always there, and He never stops loving.
I watched Lord of the Rings today. Now, I know there're people out there who believe Christians should not watch such movies cos' they stumble. And they very well may. But I know myself in this aspect. It's all imaginary. And essentially, LOTR is about the battle between good and evil. The morals are there, strong and good. I like that it's not black and white either, but shows that sometimes the line between good and evil is not so clear, but blurred many a time. You hear that, George Bush? Lol okok. No politics. In fact one could even say that there are some biblical references, but Tolkien did say, I think, that there were no hidden meanings behind his story. The Matrix is supposed to have biblical references too, but frankly, it's such crap. Now Matrix fans are gonna hound me. Haha. Anyhow, I guess I should not attach biblical meaning where there is none. That would be an insult to God. However, I did hear God speaking to me at times, watching this movie. I believe that God is so great that He can use anything and everything to get His message to us. And I hear You, God, I hear You.
You said to me today that the battle is not mine, but Yours. There were so many battle scenes...all those dead orcs, uruk-hai, whatever ugly creatures lying all over the field. You said that that is what You would make of my enemies. At one point, the fellowship had only 300 men against thousands (Or was it tens of thousands? A lot lah...) of enemes. And it was like whoa. Cos' did not Gideon have only 300 men too? And he won too. And did not I hear about the story of Gideon in a sermon yesterday too? I tell you, I got goosebumps when I came home, checked my Bible and saw that the number was the same. God, you're just too great for words. And You just spoke again just now; You said that >You would bring me through the valley of the shadow of death (flashback of Frodo and Sam on the treacherous journey to Mordor) and lead me beside still waters in green pastures (flashback of the hobbits back home after their adventure).
I have one last word.
Wow.
Ok, more than one...cos' as the song goes, if each star was a song, every breath of wind praise, it would still fail by far to say all my heart contains.
I simply live, I simply live for You.
There is nothing in this world that You cannot be.
Oh, Lord. |
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